My experience with love has been anything but easy.
I have fallen hard and fast for the wrong person. I have taken the leap and put my heart out there only to have it chucked back at me and shattered into pieces.
I have opened up my soul and my vulnerabilities to people that would only use my pain as a funny anecdote they would tell their friends at parties.
So, when I met you, I had my guard up. I was skeptical right from the start. I couldn’t handle another heartbreak, so I told myself I would keep you at arm’s length.
But you persisted.
Everything you did right made me want to resist even more. But, still, I felt my walls starting to crumble down. Because you were everything that I had ever wanted to find and more, and I couldn’t rationalize it away.
I felt myself falling, and I was terrified.
Not because it was like the love I’d felt in the past, but because it felt like the love I had always envisioned for my future.
I was scared because things between us were so…good.
I’ve come to find that when things seem too good to be true, they usually are. I kept thinking to myself: When is the illusion going to shatter? When is he going to become just like the other guys I’ve dated? Or if he is truly this good, when is he going to realize that I’m not good enough for him?
But time kept passing by, and you continued to stand by me.
You saw me at my best and at my worst, but you never faltered in your love for me. You continued to be the wonderful guy that you had always been, and I started to realize that it wasn’t an act. It was just who you are.
That’s when I realized that, while things are often too good to be true, they aren’t always that way. Sometimes they are too good, but they are still true.
I came to the realization that there is nothing that I could ever do to earn this kind of love, but I am so grateful for its presence anyway.
This love better than I ever dreamed it could be, and it’s real.